Tuesday 31 August 2010

一公升的眼淚

假如爱有天意

很久很久以前在第8播道看到的电影爱上的歌!
可事后来一直找找不到,却听到罗志祥有翻唱---《灰色空间》。。。
然后还是一直一直找找不到。。。。。。

现在终于不小心给我找到了!啊哈!!!


愛你 離開你

哇,星期四测验还没有那个心情去准备。 呵呵呵!
那天妈妈弄了饭给我带上来,一直没有机会吃,今天早上终于如愿了!(=

一大早的,是什么风吹过来让我突然想听听歌~
随便按一按 就发现好好听的歌~
不知道多久没有去磨练磨练那双会发出声音的手~




枫呢喃的轻拂窗口 像爱情也只是稍事停留
风很轻思念却很透明 怎奈穿越不了爱情

缓慢的妆流过伤口 晕开了我给不起的温柔
那一夜我们紧紧相拥 终于说出口已经不爱我

爱你所以离开你眼泪是回忆 就让他随风去
我们走过的风景剩下了飘零 漂泊的名叫伤心

爱你所以离开你爱放进行李 流浪我的记忆
为你我愿意变成云跟着风去旅行 再静静的聆听你幸福的回音



觉得最近心情起伏很大,一下emo,一下恢复,一下快乐,一下难过的。。。
可是今天温暖的心情很大很大~ (=
大家,早安啊!

Sunday 29 August 2010

等我

舍不得 舍不得

每一次离开,都带着应该已经习惯所以没怎样的决心上车。
但是挥手时,眼看爸爸妈妈走掉,
我不得不承认我一点也不习惯这种感觉。
我很讨厌离开家,离开新山。


我恨我的手指头不听使唤。
对不起那些收到不该收到我发的简讯的人。



是你们让我再也吞不进那些想念
我不该想念你们 不该 不该 不该
但是我禁不住那份心里头的炙热

有时候太感动未必是件好事,它熄灭我那敢爱敢恨的脾气,
我一个突然好像变得很渺小很渺小,小到没有人的眼里容得下自己。
我知道一星期后我还是可以回家,
可是我真的舍不得。
特别 特别 舍不得
不知道是什么人什么事把我催化成这副模样。

我一直好想好想回去的宽中,也因为太期待沦落成空。
都是我不好,都是我。

Monday 23 August 2010

Old Friends Best Friends Forever Friends



=) >< =( =D
Did I ever tell people how much I love my FoonYew friends? =O








Deep as the sea High as the sky
It was them who made my life becomes as sweet as candies! =)

Wednesday 18 August 2010

One fine day

I was having lectures from 8am to 4pm for Monday Tuesday Thursday and Friday!

Feel so suffered because I'm easy to feel sleepy whether I had enough sleep or not. If without meeting with Yanping yesterday night(*One of my bestest in KL~), i wonder if I would be emo once again?

It was all in a sudden when I was right inside Sunway Pyramid shopping with my college girlfriends and I just saw her sms after 5 hours which she dated me out for buying groceries. =) Anyway, so sorry for abandoning my college girlfriends.

All in a sudden we met without any plan! ^^ We decided to catch for LeeHom's latest movie and of course having dine together-gather. Oh, I never really attracted by any stars but LeeHom he has some kind of smartness that I couldn't describe. (*whether he is actually a gay or not~) Maybe I am one of the lovers of musicians, I really admire people who knows music real well. I think both of us do. Afterwards we went to Jusco. I met quite a few of coursemates there. Never hide your smile. =)) We then went to the side of the street waiting ChehYi after her presentation ended. Again we went RUJIA, the place where we always dine at. Last but not least, we brought funny yanping home along. Such a simple day ended but the heart was filled up with the colours of friendship fully. ^^











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I was trying so so so hard to get rid off all the saddening parts of mine since few days ago. I am easy to be emo when I listen to the same good song from the moment once I woke up in the morning till the moment before I really lie on my bed. This time the murderer was [你不知道的事] by LeeHom. It is kinda an emo song with the emo MV. I just can't help falling in love with it. Hmmm... So many years down, I had learnt that everything in my life was not granted so I have to, I need to , it a is MUST to cherish every single moment of this beautiful earth where I'm growing on.

I have my beloved family supporting me all the time - My father who always called me once a while when he really miss me too much just to hear my voice and to ask whether I had already having my meal properly or not. My mother whom I talk with everyday and night for at least 15 minutes, telling her everything of mine and asking whether she is having a rest or not, whether she feel bored or not. My sisters and brother-in-laws who always so concerning about the updates of my facebook and always pm me whether I have rest enough or am I always going out to have fun and spending money, hahaha...

I have my bestest soulmates too, all sending me warmth messages and wall posts to brighten up my day whenever they know I'm all in a mess. I really couldn't afford to lose anyone of you guys because I knew I am really the luckiest one, having a lot of sincere and true friends in my life all these years around me. Giving me strengths, giving me opinions, giving me concerns, giving me lots of lots of love. =)


I have been living in this busy town for more than half a year.
Although I never expected for more, sometimes I really couldn't control myself to miss the old good times we had together, which really brings me into the world of emoness, whenever I badly miss my hometown. The poeple there too --- my beloved family and my bestest soulmates. Do forgive me.

很多是 你不知道的事。
很多是 我想念你的事。

Sunday 15 August 2010

又 一 个 不 小 心 想 你 们 了

流鼻血给我带来了很大的负面情绪。
像是一下子全都发泄了出来。

翻翻以前的日记,很多一笔一画的感动顿时说不上来。

用拥抱感激那些愿意给你打气给你鼓励的,
也用微笑勇敢面对一切善意批评和言语的。

必需提醒自己绝对不能忘记这样简单的道理。

We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves stronger.



下午烫完衣服,身边一直带着手机,心想要好好地发一封message给想念的人们,
想要不吝啬地告诉你我有在想你你你你你你你,
打着打着,一个字一个字慢慢删去,剩下的就是最单的表达。
我总是太轻易地喜欢上大家,总是太轻易就想念不在身边的大家,总是太轻易就陷下去。
我一直以为我一定会习惯,可是好像有你们在才是习惯。




如果 我会变魔术
我希望把你们变成玫瑰花茶 那样越来越香醇
还记得 当初那么要好
笑得那么大声 表情那么可爱天真
那时你们心里没有什么昏暗 每天必做的功课不外是聊一聊玩一玩
那样地 讨人喜欢
那样地 互相帮忙
现在一声轻声问候 希望你不要觉得这是个过分要求

如果 我会变魔术
把自己变成是一卷tissue papers 可以替她擦掉眼泪
或者弄出一盏神灯 达成她小小的愿望 尽能力解决她的烦恼
那她就可以安稳地睡个觉 安心地按时吃饭 专心地投入在功课上
生病时也不会想别的

如果 我会变魔术
我希望自己变成一面镜子 当她们在我身边时 会看得见自己笑得像个孩子
那她可能会放下心地把累积许久的烦恼告诉我
也许这是个陪她分担 陪她想办法的好办法



我以前总是花很多很多的心思对待任何一个值得我对你好的人。
我没有做到上刀山 下油锅
可是我记得我也曾经是不顾一切地把整个心都掏空,一切像是那么地真实。

但,怎么。。。
我越来越不像自己?


也许有时候话不用说太多,
Best Friends are always Best Friends
20年过去了,不是我要认命,只是毕业后的3年里,该经历的事都经历过了,
那时那个纯净的心境早已变得不再那么简单,
我也想过得比任何人都简单,
但心里面多了好多道好多道厚厚的墙,奢望哪一天会有一丝暖暖的微光,
能把那股悲伤的忧郁都融化掉。

请原谅我最原始的发泄方式 - 那一滴一滴掉下来的不是眼泪 而是想念。

原谅我再也不擅长表达自己
原谅我再也不擅于倾诉自己
原谅我再也不那么自强不息
原谅我今天的不得已,我只是忍不住想宣泄一点点而已。


最后
我不过只是一个想要回家的孩子。
爸爸妈妈不要担心我,我会学着忘记最痛的地方,坚强面对,学会遗忘。

哼!

开始学会内敛~
高兴说不出口 伤心就藏起来 委屈装作没事 想埋怨就坚持
我不知道我为什么会委屈
但坚持放任不肯哭泣
这就是偶尔 越来越忠实于克制自己的我啦~ ^^
(*好事来的)


不过我还是有小抱怨
因为很多时候,想起一些人的一些话,
打量打量,那些根本不值得自己用心深交的人,说的话就算再尖酸刻薄,
也根本没有在我心里留下位置的权利!!!
我不跟你计较,是因为你不值得我在乎~ 你不配!!!!!

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这个周末结束后,之后的日子真的不好过。
我期待9月假期的到来,
Oh,拜托快点放假,我很想回家~!

Saturday 14 August 2010

Crazy week

Having fun for the whole week
is equal to
Spending bucks for it


At first I dated muimui was because I wanna apply for the CIMB clicks for uses in paying my Sem2 school fees. After that we went to have our fav GCB, Kindori and the most costly should be the Manhattan at the night! OH MY GOD, I really don't know what's wrong with me!!!












Things went wrong in the next day again.
Muimui stayed ovenight at my room and supposed we were having class at noon, weren't we? But then when we already sit in the class, THE CLASS WAS CANCELLED!!! Ohhhh, the mood came once again! She listened I talking about INCEPTION all the time and she was eager to watch it so... I WENT FOR MY 2ND TIME FOR THE MOVIE after having dinner at Ajisen! =D





However the week has not yet ended! =O
Gigi she got the Genting's First World Hotel's Shareholders Voucher (FOC), we were planning to go to Genting for one night right after school on Thursday!!! There are totally five of us for the trip~ =)

We went to walk around
Here and there at the night but the night was weird because Genting was not that cold and I even felt a bit hot~ LOL~!


We went to Starbucks for relaxing purpose.


OH~ The two girls went clubbing, the boy went to walk around to find back his memories, and simin and I were just planning to walk in the first world plaza. We were being attracted by a band in the bar so we went up a little bit to listen to their songs. After a couple of songs we met Boris! THEN we went inside there and ordered a bucket of Heineken (*It's really not in the plan but just kena shiok by the band of the Pub~!)
I just finished one bottle of Heineken and 1/4 glass of Carlsberg then I really started to feel tired and my face was so so hot and from my face to my legs are all BURNING RED! OH MY GOD! >O<






But the night has not yet ended,
later on we went to Safari to look for the other two girls. (*They went to clubbing - this was actually in their plan lah of course~) This was my first time to go in a club! Simin and I were requested to show our IC (*Hey, I thought now I look very old but they still thought I was under 18~!) Woahseh!!! (*I was actually planned to bring the two girls back to the hotel~!) Later on, we went in and we really found them! But then another glass of Heineken were given to us(*by a guy)!
Ahem, I really really don't know what's wrong with me to drank the whole glass of it because I didn't even seen his face! Very Very stupid me hoh?! Within 10 minutes then Simin and me were really insisting bringing the two girls back to hotel lah... At the night when we were back to hotel, everyone was tired but hungry then went out for KFC and I slept at 5am in the morning. Hmmm, no comments for the night but i was really a bit high after the alcohol effects. OH NO~!!! =X
will NEVER have the next time unless with my dearest 1SP and S2 Gang.




The next morning after awakening, we went to walk around again.
I met my classmates there, and I went to look for YanPing alone as we met on the bus going to Genting the day before! :D haha!!! We talked we laughed we shot each other and we were very enjoyed being together! =D





Actually the trip was quite fun la~! =)
Thanks Gigi for the FOC voucher so that we could stay at the hotel only @ RM3!!! Hahahahaha! =)
A big thankiewww to YanPing too because on the way back to KL Central, we sat together and we chat A LOT about the past few years and of course sharing stories about our own BESTEST FRIENDS in the life! =') Ohhh, how nice to have a friend to talk all these sweet little matters with! ^^


My conclusion for the trip is:
It made me REALLY MISS MY BESTEST FRIENDS SO SO MUCH!!!

Ahhh!!!

Wednesday 11 August 2010

王力宏「你不知道的事」



蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行 夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地
我飞行 但你坠落之际 很靠近 还听见呼吸 对不起 我却没捉紧你
你不知道我为什么离开你 我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴像倾盆大雨 碎落满地 在心里清晰
你不知道我为什么狠下心 盘旋在你看不见那高空里
很多是 你不知道的事



听了几遍之后,
我想我开始期待这部电影[戀愛通告]了!

最近怎么那么爱看戏?!
而且看了就都不太能忘记,把自己带进很多不同的世界去,
已经越来越厌倦看连续剧,因为电影还是比较刻骨铭心。
那些挥之不去的剧情偶尔还是我上课的原动力,哈哈哈~


p/s:
嗯,你啊你,如果你看到你会知道我说你,你说有时候你宁愿自己一个人?
说不定其实有哪些人也和你一样这么想,只是你没发觉而已(!) =)
别怕别怕,深交过才会知道值不值得你这么想!
别把自己困在一堆灰暗的心情中,有些你不知道的人想替你加油啊!Cheer up! =)

Monday 9 August 2010

Beans of matters

Telling you guys,
Recently i fell in love with the snack ---
which I don't really know what is the name of the stall but usually when we wanted to eat this, we will say "Hey, let's go to 三块九!" (=
This is how it looks like, filled with meat or veges with a thin crispy crust. It tastes simply great!



On the other hand,
Lately, I enjoyed having a supreme nice chicken chop with singer of the day singing old songs! No doubt i mean i am so enjoyed even sitting silently at 民歌餐厅! (=






It's so so comforty listen to the live singers sitting on the stage singing those unforgettable old good songs with a guitar~!!! The singers sing really well, and play guitar awesomely too! Owhhhh, can't tell you guys how relaxed and how happy and how I love the feel because I had been very EMO since after my summer holidays ended.
Hmmmm, they let me alive and I FEEL GOOD! =)


Some more, there was my KL besties together with me and to prepare some good stuff for our dear friend's (Aaron) 20th birthday, which let me recalled of mine too.



My first day of 20th was so sweet~ Although I didn't really get to be together with ALL of my bestest friends of my life at KL but I'm really satisfied because those whom I spent with really warmed my heart as I didn't really want to celebrate it. However it turned out to be a very special one! ^^ Since i started to wear uniform, I never really celebrated for the whole night with my fellow friends around because every year, 0511 was a big disaster --- MID-YEAR EXAM!!!!! =S Anyway, there was still a bunch of friends sending me this and that on the exam spot and even cook something nice for me and the most precious thing is the birthday cards from everyone which i could still keep until N O W. Awwww, friendship really mean SOMETHING to me personally! (=


*I notice that after I moved my blog to blogspot, I work harder on wrting blogs even on the sweet little matters, which I myself don't even know why. HAHA~! =*)

Sunday 8 August 2010

IU's version

Guys, check this out!
She was borned in 1993, a Korean~

The point is, she is the reason why i fell in love with the Korean song Gee~!
I'm really addicted to her sweet voice!



She does have a great voice, doesn't she? (=

BE BRAVE!

Has been coughing for couple days... BIG BIG thanks for the ChuanBei PiPaGao! hahaha...



Feeling even more better in the morning after eating the bun which i baked myself during the Friday's pastry class. HAHAHA! (=



Can't tell y'all how great to have invovled in the baking class if compared to the Pure Acedemic [Principle of Accounting] (=O)! By the way, I also can't tell how I hate to serve strangers by the 30 steps method which made people so so nervous of! My semester two is really a big disaster because I have Front Office + Accommodation + Serving, these three main suffering subjects! Hopefully the rest of the 13 weeks will not be my bad memories. I need a lot of strength to go on! AZA AZA FIGHTING! (=



快乐其实是一种方法,一种你能自己掌握的方法,
你必须学习抓住快乐,而不是等待快乐从天而降。
试着改变自己的思路,在适当的时候停下脚步转一个弯,
相信一切都会变得简单。